Reasons I wish I had stayed home:

Crawling into my parent's bed whenever I needed a hug
Watching whatever I wanted on TV
Being sick and not being criticized by people that don't really know me
Being sick and having my parent's care
Hanging out with my friends at the mall
Being around people I've known longer than 2 months
Walking around the cove at sundown with my dad
Playing with Emily
Having a car had I stayed in the desert for COD
Going to my grandma's house and talking with her
Family parties
My bed
My baby grand piano
Listening to music really loudly when my parents were at work
Riding the Sunbus
Going to places I'm familiar with
Running errands with my mom
Going to my Aunt's house and running up and down her stairs
Making my cousins laugh
Being able to lock my doors
Taking a shower and getting ready in the same room
Riding my bike
Talking to my dad in car rides to nowhere
Going to Dominic's house
Home-made food
Dancing
Sleeping wherever I wanted
Kevin car rides
Conversations between Elisa and her dad
Conversations between Elisa and Viktorria
Conversations between Elisa and her cats
Really tight hugs
Going to dinner with my mom and dad
Going to breakfast with my dad
The way the kitchen looks at around 11 am when the light shines in just right
The way my couch squeaks when anyone sits on it
The sound of birds outside my window every morning
Knowing my dad's home when he honks
Knowing my mom's home when she calls
The way the garage door open sounds because it's old
Opening the fridge and knowing you can have whatever you want in it
Being able to go get the mail
Walking across the street to say hi to Chloe
Taking the bus and going to the library and sitting there for hours
Knowing the librarian by name
Going to Starbucks after the library and reading your book there
Going with my dad to clean carpets
Going with my mom to eat chinese food with the family
The familiar creak of my house door
The fireplace around Christmas time
Being bought clothes that I don't particularly like but wearing them anyway because they're comfortable
Getting a free ride on the sunbus because my dad somehow is related to the driver
My dad getting me food because he knows exactly what I do and do not like
The ice cream man passing by every once in a while
Dillon and Ryan's house
Making music on my piano
Singing and whistling as loudly as I pleased
Speaking in spanish
Being able to look back on things with family/friends
Roadrunners
Listening to music before I go to sleep
Listening to music when I shower
Climbing the backyard tree and getting on the roof
Knowing the neighbors
The River on Saturday mornings
Knowing where the arcade games and photobooths are
Being able to make my parents laugh whenever I acted weird
BEST Productions
The football games I went to just to watch the halftime shows
Going across the street after a game just to go on the swings
Picnics
The loveliness of living in a small town where you could get places without having to go on the freeway
The swapmeet next to grandma's house
Grandma's yippy yappy Chihuahua
Karaoke at my Uncle's house
Going to a place you've known since you were born
Going to Mexicali
Still holding my dad's hand just to cross the road
Not feeling like shit when I miss school
Hanging about the house looking icky and not caring
Inviting people over on ocassion and doing nothing
Not being afraid to ring the doorbell or knock because I forgot my keys again
Being able to change the radio station in the car and listening to music that my parents and I sing along to
Not wanting to cry whenever I think of these things

and perhaps being able to see who I absolutely am in love with.