Tonight I feel...

I have to cross bridges of glass, I feel the whisper of the water underneath me and my mind sinks into it slowly. I tie knots around these ideas that, if communicated, no one would ever be capable of understanding. I have to stop tapping my feet, or the world underneath me will shatter into unrecognizable pieces. To be honest, I'm just scared. I like knowing exactly how I feel because it gives me a sense of control but right now my emotions are small birds that need to escape. They sense it too. But I have to apply serenity, right? I have to understand that some things I can't help. Some things I just cannot change. I close my eyes and take in music, I inhale sonatas and tarantellas. Within this oxygen I take into my lungs are the notes and lyrics. I suck it in because without it I can't help but feel empty. I'm going crazy because I haven't hugged anyone since my parents left me here. I lay awake after having dreamt something strange and take in the night. I can feel my pupils pleading for light. I think heavily. Deep thoughts that have no exact explanation. How do I feel? I feel like I've been falling. I feel like I reach for the walls in a well and find nothing. I'm falling into measures. I landed on the bass clef. I yearn and yearn and yearn for the invisible lover in all of this classical music.
Wait..repeat that:
I yearn for the invisible lover in all of this classical music

That's how I feel.