it's as though

i can't be myself anymore
it's distressing,
i'm doing something wrong
it's either this or be like everyone else
and why is it that being anahi is so difficult?
because the masterplan was that if i don't try
hard enough, or endure enough
then maybe i don't deserve to be myself
and perhaps i'm wrong
but then again, who isn't

11/11

i've had goosebumps for the past 3minutes
after you called and all I could think about
was some sort of slim chance that
maybe everything will work itself out in the end
I try to clear my mind and just think about
things that can actually happen,
I'm sick and tired of my dreams
but I always have that thought
-the one you permanently stuck in my head

lie

and be lied to